“You’ll thank me,” she said.
I wanted barbecue. Pulled pork, cornbread. My mother said, “You can’t serve barbecue at a wedding, Vera. People will talk.”
I wanted the seating chart to put Nathan’s family up front. She rearranged it so her friends filled the first four rows.
When I pushed back gently, the only way I knew how, she cried right there in our living room, dabbing her eyes with a tissue she already had in her hand.
“I’m just trying to make this beautiful for you. Your father would have wanted it this way.”
And I folded. Every time.
Nathan started spending longer hours in his workshop. He didn’t complain, but I caught him standing at his workbench sometimes, not building anything, just staring at the wall.
One evening, Rachel—my maid of honor, my best friend since eighth grade—came over for the first rehearsal dinner planning session. She watched my mother rearrange the centerpiece samples I had chosen, replacing everything with her own choices. Rachel didn’t say anything to Diane, but later, at the door, she grabbed my arm.
“I need you to trust me on something. Don’t ask questions yet.”
I laughed nervously. “What do you mean?”
She just squeezed my hand and left.
I didn’t understand. Not then.
Two months before the wedding, my mother invited Nathan to lunch. Just the two of them. She said it was to talk about family things. I thought it was a good sign.
But Nathan came home that afternoon and sat down across from me at the kitchen table. He folded his hands. He was careful with his words. He always is. But I could see the tension in his shoulders.
“Your mother told me you had a breakdown in college.”
My stomach dropped.
“She used the phrase damaged goods.”
I stared at him. The room tilted.
“She said, ‘My daughter needs someone who can handle her. Can you really?’”
I opened my mouth, but nothing came out, because yes—after my father died, I went through a dark stretch my sophomore year. I saw a counselor. I worked through it. It wasn’t a secret, but it wasn’t ammunition either.
My mother had turned it into ammunition.
“What did you say?” I whispered.
Nathan looked at me steadily. “I said I don’t see damage. I see someone who survived you.”
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