“What did you do, Mom?”
“Jyll is gone,” I said. “And she left me this.”
My mother inhaled sharply, like she’d been bracing for this day.
“I always worried that she might run, Zach,” she began, smoothing her robe like she was fixing something that wasn’t broken.
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“Why?”
“I always worried that she might run, Zach.”
“You know why, son. She was fragile, Zach. After the twins —”
“That was nearly six years ago,” I cut in. “You think she stayed fragile forever?”
“She never truly got better. She played the part, I’ll give her that. But you saw it too, the blank stares, the mood swings… She was slipping.”
“You used to say that she was nothing but ungrateful.”
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“You know why, son.”
“She was that too,” my mother continued. “But more than that, she needed help. She needed structure. And I gave it to her.”
“You didn’t help her. You controlled her.”
“She needed control, Zach! Someone had to hold things together. You were working 12-hour days and she —”
“She was doing her best!”
“Someone had to hold things together.”
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“She was spiraling.”
“No, Mom,” I said, leaning forward. “You were spiraling. You just dragged her down with you.”
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