I grew up believing the farm would always be my refuge. I never imagined I would have to fight to stay there the week we buried my grandfather.
My grandfather raised me. When my parents died in a car accident on a wet October night, I was 12 years old.
I remember sitting on a hospital bench with a social worker who kept saying words like “placement” and “temporary housing ,” then I heard my grandfather’s voice coming down the hall.
“She’s coming home with me.”
That’s all.
Just his firm hand on my shoulder and the smell of hay and mint chewing gum.
My parents are dead.
My grandfather and the farm became my world.
My new house wasn’t very fancy. The paint on the barn was peeling off in long strips and the roof leaked every spring, but it was ours.
Grandfather taught me how to repair a fence and how to read the sky before a storm breaks.
When I had nightmares, he would sit on the edge of my bed and say, “You’re safe here, Katie. Nothing on this earth can touch you.”
My new house wasn’t very fancy.
Years have passed. I got married young, divorced even younger, and went back to live with my grandfather, with my three children.
I took them with me when my ex decided that the responsibilities weren’t for him.
Grandfather never complained. He simply nodded and said, “No more boots at the door means more life in the house.”
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When his health began to decline about ten years ago, it initially happened slowly.
He would forget where he had put his hat, then he would forget if he had fed the horses.
Grandfather never complained.
Eventually, he could no longer climb the stairs without holding the handrail with both hands.
So I took over.
I did the harvesting, I took care of the suppliers and I balanced the accounts at the kitchen table once the children were in bed.
I drove him to all his doctor’s appointments and changed his bandages when his circulation deteriorated.
I cut back on my grocery expenses so I could pay the bills for the house he built with his own hands.
When the last harvest failed due to an early frost, I took out a small loan and didn’t tell anyone except the banker.
I took over.
But her child, my aunt Linda, was another story.
She left the farm 20 years ago to live in the city. My aunt complained that farm life was beneath her.
She married a man in Chicago who sold commercial real estate, started posting pictures of rooftop parties and spa weekends, and only called Grandpa when she needed help covering a credit card bill.
He always sent her the money.
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