“Tell her I’m busy.”
The words landed like stones.
Mom’s voice returned artificially bright. “Your father’s just in the middle of something. Victoria was telling the funniest story.”
“It’s fine, Mom.”
“Are you eating enough? Do you need anything?”
I looked around my room—at the instant ramen on my desk, at the secondhand blanket, at the textbook I’d borrowed from the library because I couldn’t afford to buy it.
“No, Mom. I don’t need anything.”
“Okay. Well, we love you.”
“Love you, too.”
I hung up.
Then I opened Facebook. The first thing in my feed was a photo Victoria had just posted: Mom, Dad, and Victoria at the dining table. Candles lit. Turkey gleaming.
The caption: Thankful for my amazing family.
My amazing family.
I zoomed in on the photo. Three place settings. Three chairs, not four.
They hadn’t even set a place for me.
I sat there for a long time, staring at that image. Something shifted inside me that night. The ache I’d carried for years—the longing for their approval, their attention, their love—it didn’t disappear, but it changed. It hollowed out. And where the pain used to be, there was only quiet emptiness.
Strangely, that emptiness gave me something the pain never had.
Clarity.
Second semester, freshman year. Microeconomics 101.
Dr. Margaret Smith was legendary at Eastbrook. 30 years of teaching, published in every major journal. Terrifying reputation. Students whispered that she hadn’t given an A in 5 years.
I sat in the third row, took meticulous notes, and turned in my first essay expecting a B-minus at best.
The paper came back with two letters at the top: A+.
Beneath the grade was a note in red ink: See me after class.
My heart dropped. What did I do wrong?
After the lecture, I approached her desk. Dr. Smith was already packing her bag—silver hair pulled back in a severe bun, reading glasses perched on her nose.
“Francis Townsend.”
“Yes, ma’am.”
“Sit down.”
I sat.
She looked at me over her glasses. “This essay is one of the best pieces of undergraduate writing I’ve seen in 20 years. Where did you study before this?”
“Nowhere special. Public high school. Nothing advanced.”
“And your family? academics.”
I hesitated.
“My family doesn’t support my education, financially or otherwise.”
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