I came home from school and found him on the kitchen floor.
The ambulance came. The hospital used words like “massive” and “bilateral.” The doctor in the hallway explained that my grandpa walking again was unlikely.
The man who had carried me out of a burning building could no longer stand up.
I sat in the waiting room for six hours and didn’t let myself fall apart because my grandfather needed me steady for once.
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Grandpa was discharged from the hospital in a wheelchair. When he finally came home, a first-floor bedroom had been set up for him.
Grandpa was discharged from the hospital in a wheelchair.
He disliked the shower rail for two weeks, then got practical about it the way he got practical about everything. With months of therapy, his speech gradually returned.
Grandpa still showed up for school events, report cards, and my scholarship interview, where he sat in the front row and gave me a thumbs-up right before I walked into the room.
“You’re not the kind of person life breaks, Macy,” he told me once. “You’re the kind it makes tougher.”
Grandpa was the reason I had the confidence to walk into any room and hold my head high.
Unfortunately, there was one person who always seemed determined to knock that confidence down: Amber.
There was one person who always seemed determined to knock that confidence down.
Amber and I’d been in the same classes since freshman year, competing for the same grades, the same scholarships, and the same handful of spots on the honor roll.
She was smart, and she knew it. The problem was that she used it to make other people feel smaller.
In the hallway, she’d let her voice carry just enough for me to hear it. “Can you imagine who Macy’s bringing to prom?” Pause. Giggle. “I mean, what guy would actually go with her?”
More laughter came from whoever was standing close enough to appreciate the performance.
She used it to make other people feel smaller.
Amber had a nickname for me that spread through a certain corner of junior year like a bad cold. I won’t repeat it here. I’ll just say it wasn’t kind.
I got good at not letting my face react. But it hurt.
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