The first thing my husband said after our children were born was not what I expected.
It wasn’t concern for my health. It wasn’t relief that the delivery was over. It wasn’t wonder at the sight of five tiny lives breathing for the first time.
It was accusation.
The nurse had just placed two of the babies into my arms while the other three slept in the bassinets beside my bed. I was exhausted beyond words, my body still trembling from the strain of labor, my mind barely able to keep up with the reality that I was now a mother to five newborns at once.
Five heartbeats. Five tiny chests rising and falling. Five lives that already owned every part of my heart.
My husband stood at the foot of the hospital bed, completely still.
“All five babies are Black,” he said loudly, his voice breaking through the quiet of the maternity ward.
The room froze.
I remember the smell of antiseptic, the dull ache pulsing through my body, and the way the babies felt impossibly warm against my skin. I remember nurses exchanging uneasy glances and a doctor clearing his throat, as if trying to decide whether to intervene.
I looked at my husband, confused and stunned.
“What are you saying?” I whispered.
He took a step backward, his face pale, his eyes wide with something that looked like fear mixed with anger.
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