bag and her gaze straight ahead, without seeing the houses, without seeing the gardens, without seeing anything that Emiliano saw with amazement, because Sofia was 7 years old, but the gaze of someone who stopped being amazed by the world the day a man knocked on the door of the room where they lived and told them they had 24 hours to leave.
“How long have you been living there?” Ricardo asked, without taking his eyes off the road. Lupe didn’t answer. She hugged Mateo to her chest and looked out the window. And the silence that followed was the silence of a woman who doesn’t know how to say what she needs to say, because saying it out loud only makes it more real.
“Three months,” said Sofia from the back seat. “87 days. I count them.” Ricardo adjusted the rearview mirror to see the girl. “Do you count them?” “Every night before going to sleep I make a mark on the bridge wall with a stone,” said Sofia with the naturalness of someone who
He explains something he does every day, like brushing his teeth or combing his hair, except that what he did every day was count the days he had been living on the street.
My mom doesn’t know. I do it when she’s asleep. Sofia said softly, without turning around. 87 lines, Mom. 87 days sleeping on cardboard. The silence that followed. It filled the whole truck.
Ricardo gripped the steering wheel. Sofia kept talking, not because anyone asked her to, but because she had been silent for 87 days and the dam had broken, and the water was coming out with the force of everything she had contained.
“Before, we lived in a room in the Oblatos neighborhood,” said Sofia. “It was small, but it had a lockable door, a stove, and a bathroom that we shared with the neighbors. My mom paid 3,200 a month.”
We had enough, not much, but enough. Mom would buy a chicken on Sundays and it would last us until Wednesday. From Thursday to Saturday we ate beans with tortillas, and on Sundays we had chicken again.
Ricardo listened to her. He listened to the accounting of a 7-year-old girl who knew exactly how much the room cost, how much the chicken cost, how many days the food would last. Because in families where money is tight, children learn to count before they learn to read.
“Three months ago, my mom came home on a Friday with less money,” Sofia continued. “She didn’t tell us why, but that week there was no chicken on Sunday or the following Sunday. And then the man from the room came three times to collect, and my mom asked him for more time, but he kept saying no.”
And one night he came with a locksmith and brought our things out onto the sidewalk. “At night?” Ricardo asked, his voice heavy with emotion. It was around 10 o’clock. Emiliano was already asleep.
My mom carried him with one hand and grabbed the bag of clothes with the other. I grabbed Emy’s books and notebook, and the bag of papers.
Mateo was on my mom’s back, wrapped in a shawl. Sofia paused. We walked a lot that night. My mom was looking for a place where it wasn’t raining. She found the bridge. There were cardboard boxes underneath.
There was nobody there. My mom put Mateo on the cardboard box. She covered us with the jacket and blanket we could get and sat next to us without lying down.
She didn’t sleep that night. Neither did I. I pretended to be asleep, but I saw her sitting there staring at the river all night with Mateo in her arms. Ricardo ran a red light. He didn’t see her.
She saw nothing, except the image Sofia was putting in her head. A woman sitting on cardboard under a bridge at night with a baby in her arms, staring at a river of black water, not sleeping, not crying, not complaining, simply sitting in the dark, deciding that
The next day she was going to get up and go to work at a mansion where there was plenty of everything she lacked. “It rained the first few nights,” Sofia said. Water was coming in from one side of the bridge.
My mom would move us all to the other side and put the plastic sheeting over the cardboard boxes, but the water still seeped in underneath. Mateo got sick with a cough the second week.
My mom took him to the corner pharmacy and they bought him some syrup with what little they had left. I put damp cloths on his forehead like my mom taught me.
Emiliano leaned away from the window and looked at his sister. “Sofia, don’t tell anyone about the rats.” “Yes, I’m going to tell them,” Sofia said. “One night, two big rats came and scurried under the cardboard boxes looking for tortillas.”
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