The ending was that I finally loved myself enough to stop waiting for them to.
The strangest part of meeting Vicki for coffee wasn’t what she said.
It was what she didn’t do.
She didn’t try to corner me into a hug. She didn’t cry dramatically. She didn’t say, “But we’re sisters,” like that phrase was supposed to work like a spell. She didn’t mention our parents, even once, even though I could tell the topic hovered in the space between us like smoke.
When I got home, I expected my body to crash from adrenaline the way it used to after every confrontation with my family. Instead, I cleaned the kitchen, fed the cat, answered a couple work emails, and felt… normal.
It scared me a little.
Normal used to feel like something I had to earn.
Rob noticed it too. He didn’t interrogate me. He didn’t pressure me for details. He just watched me move around our apartment, then said, “You’re quieter.”
“I don’t know if it’s good quiet or bad quiet,” I admitted.
Rob nodded. “Then we wait and see.”
We waited.
Two weeks passed. Then three.
Vicki didn’t message. My parents stayed blocked. My life kept happening in the soft, ordinary way it deserved: work meetings, grocery runs, a neighbor’s dog that always barked at the same leaf, Sunday dinners with my friends where we laughed over nothing and everything.
Then, on a Tuesday afternoon, my therapist asked me something that made my stomach twist.
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