I took a deep breath—the same measured, diaphragmatic breath I take just before stepping out of the bay of a C-130 into the dark. But this was different. When you jump from a plane, you trust your parachute. You trust your rig. Here, my parachute had just been ripped to shreds by the people who knitted it. This jump felt infinitely scarier.
“I’m ready,” I whispered.
I pushed the doors open. The organ music swelled, deep resonant chords that vibrated in the floorboards. The sound of my heels on the marble was deafening. Click, clack, click, clack. It wasn’t a procession; it was a march. Lonely. Determined.
I could feel the eyes of every guest on me. I saw their polite smiles freeze, their heads tilt in confusion, and then, the worst thing of all: pity. I saw the whispers start behind cupped hands. Where are they? Is she an orphan?
My training kicked in. Chin up. Shoulders back. Eyes forward. Never let the enemy know they scored a hit.
I focused on the end of the aisle. David. He stood there, handsome in his tuxedo, his eyes locked on mine. He didn’t look embarrassed. He looked heartbroken—not for himself, but for me. He knew exactly what this public rejection was costing me. He knew the history of the war I had been fighting since I was seventeen.
When I reached him, he took my hand. His grip was warm, a grounding force in a world that was tilting on its axis.
The Navy Chaplain, a man who had seen combat in Fallujah and understood the nature of sacrifice, began to speak. He spoke of loyalty, of endurance, of commitment in the face of adversity. I almost laughed—a bitter, silent thing that died in my throat. I had sworn my loyalty to my country. I had sworn my life to my team. But the blood oath—the family I was born into—where was that loyalty?
“I’m here,” David whispered, so low only I could hear. “And right now, that is the only truth that matters.”
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