“I think it requires ethics and transparency,” I countered before I could stop myself.
The temperature at the table seemed to drop ten degrees. My mother’s hand flew to her necklace, her nervous tell. James shifted uncomfortably while Tyler studied his water glass with sudden fascination.
We managed to navigate through the rest of lunch with superficial conversation, but the tension remained palpable. As we prepared to leave for the afternoon graduation reception on campus, my father announced he had made dinner reservations for just our family at Laurel Heights, the most expensive restaurant in Berkeley.
“We need family time,” he stated in a tone that brooked no argument. “Seven o’clock.”
My friends looked concerned, but I assured them I would meet up with them afterward for our planned celebration. As we parted ways, Rachel squeezed my arm.
“Text us if you need an emergency rescue,” she whispered. “We can fake a crisis in ten minutes flat.”
I laughed, but part of me wondered if I might need exactly that before the night was over.
Laurel Heights restaurant exuded old-world luxury, all polished wood, crystal glasses, and hushed conversations. My father had reserved a table in the main dining room rather than a private space, which surprised me given his usual preference for privacy. The restaurant was filled with other graduation parties, families beaming with pride as they toasted their graduates. The contrast with our table couldn’t have been more stark.
My father ordered an expensive bottle of wine without consulting anyone’s preferences, then spent the first twenty minutes of dinner interrogating me about my decision to accept Yale’s offer over other law schools.
“New Haven,” he said with thinly veiled distaste. “Another four years away from Chicago. One might think you’re deliberately choosing locations based on their distance from family.”
“I’m choosing based on the quality of education and career opportunities,” I replied evenly, determined not to let him provoke me on what should have been a celebratory day.
“Yale does have an excellent reputation,” my mother offered tentatively.
My father continued as if she hadn’t spoken. “And your focus on constitutional law. What exactly do you plan to do with that? Spend your career arguing theoretical points while making a public defender’s salary.”
Tyler attempted to deflect. “Dad, Nat only just graduated summa cum laude from Berkeley. Maybe we could just celebrate that tonight.”
“I’m simply trying to understand the return on investment here,” my father replied, swirling his wine with precision. “Four years of education should lead to tangible outcomes.”
“My education isn’t a stock portfolio,” I said, feeling heat rise in my cheeks despite my determination to remain calm. “Its value isn’t measured only in dollars.”
James, ever the peacemaker when it served his interests, jumped in. “How’s your roommate Stephanie handling job hunting? Finance, wasn’t it?”
“Environmental science,” I corrected, “and she’s already accepted a position with a climate research institute.”
My father scoffed. “Another idealist. You certainly found your people out here.”
With each passing minute, the tension mounted. Nearby tables were celebrating with champagne toasts and warm speeches while our conversation grew increasingly strained. A family at the next table had just presented their graduate with a new car key, everyone laughing and taking photos.
“Now that’s a practical graduation gift,” my father remarked pointedly. “Useful for entering the real world.”
“I don’t need a car in New Haven,” I said. “The campus is walkable.”
“That wasn’t my point, Natalie,” he replied coldly.
The waiter arrived with our entrees, providing a momentary reprieve. As we began eating, my mother made a valiant attempt to change the subject, asking about my favorite Berkeley experiences. I started describing my work with a legal aid clinic, explaining how we’d helped low-income residents with housing disputes.
“We managed to prevent three evictions last semester by pro bono work,” my father interrupted, cutting his steak with surgical precision. “Noble, but ultimately unsustainable. The legal profession isn’t charity work.”
“Some of us believe in using our skills to help others, not just enrich ourselves,” I replied, my patience finally beginning to fray.
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